New Leaves

I absolutely love the Fall! It has got to be my favorite season. I love the crisp, cool air. I love that you can run outside again. I love the fall colors (even though we don't really get them in Las Vegas). I love when the tip of your nose gets nipped when you go for walks in the park. I love snuggling under blankets and sleeping with the windows open. I love chilled toes buried at the bottom of the bed. I love cozying up in sweaters. I love that things settle down and get more rhythmic. I love that the world just seems to sleep a little. I just love the Fall!

So, in honor of the fall leaves, I have decided to turn over some leaves of my own and let some old habits fall. I don't know where I get it (both sides of the family), but I am independant, stubborn, and self-reliant. Ok, those may not sound like such bad qualities...but let me assure you that they are when done in extremes, which is oftentimes how I roll. I am horrible at letting people help me. I am good at asking for it when I desperately need it, but I always wait until I'm desperate. Bad idea. I am turning over my stubborn, independant, self-reliant leaves. I am going to let people help me when they offer, I'm going to welcome suggestions more freely, and I'm not going to do everything myself.

For some reason I have this idea that if I need something, I can do it, or I can get it. It'll just be easier if I do it, and I don't need help. I have a fear of, and I never want to be a person who is accused of using their friends, or being lazy, or expecting people to help them all the time with nothing in return. BUT here's the thing...I hate it when I ask someone if I can help them with something and they tell me "no". I feel so useless sitting back, watching them work away. Hello! I do this to people ALL the time. When I think of good business and church leaders, I realize that those who are good leaders CAN do everything, but don't HAVE to do everything. I am depriving others of service opportunities and depriving both of us of learning experiences by trying to do it all on my own. Not to mention the stress I put my poor little body under!

After listening to the RS Broadcast and talking with friends recently, I know that we can always be doing more in our callings, and in our lives. We are always moving, changing, growing, learning, and improving...BUT we don't have to do it alone. We don't have to do it all ourselves, and though we are ever changing, learning, growing, improving, and doing more, there is still TONS that we can let others help us with. So, here's to the beautiful Fall season and to turning over new leaves!